September 2010
1 post
DEAD
i thought that what we’ve been through would make us stronger, together~ seeing friends break up before our eyes made me, at least, feel that i would do anything to prevent such things from happening to us.
sadly it still did, i feel so torn apart. and i feel my heartache with every beat, as soon as you mentioned those hurtful words. i know i’m not perfect, you should’ve...
August 2010
9 posts
BABYSIT
Spend my night baby sitting a bunch of kids whose going to grow up thinking clubbing is about waving lightsticks around, siewmai for boobs and chopsticks for legs, humping motion equates to dancing and rubbish club remix. cute cousins!
WORDY.
You know, we aren’t negative about our YOG. We just can’t be bothered. What we are currently facing, is the product of a decade of spoon fed, controlled and manufactured growth with our sports identity. Gone were the hay days of Fandi Ahmad and the Singapore Lions, gone is the pride of a nation into sports. A complete lack of publicity by the local media is a partial blame, but...
DEIST
I would rather be a Deist (not Atheist) than belong in any religion.
one step closer to world peace.
ALYSSA.
OMG, Jen and Walton’s baby is so cute!!! and its really sweet for Walton to post up stories of their baby’s everyday life! ^^
Welcome to the world baby Alyssa :D
Walton should be super proud of both of them;
Jen for pulling this off without the need for pain killers, thus withstanding all the pain and joy of giving birth.
Baby Alyssa for developing so beautifully in her...
LACKING.
Everything Ben advised has been spot on… i guess, i really need to know how a guy’s mindset is like.
learning as i pursue,
past is past and what matters most it that we learn from our mistakes.
words are words but words without expression can be hazardous.
time is precious so i gotta cherish every moment and make the most out of it.
independence is crucial as everyone needs their...
OUGHT.
after talking to Ben Siew, i feel that i’ve understood your character more.
there were good points and bad points but i’m okay with it all.
things like “he may not be the best lover, but he makes a good husband and a good father.”
things like guys tend to read between the lines. so the more complicated things get, the more lines they read in between. then they assume the...
SLAMMED.
i really feel like slamming my fists against a wall.
after our argument today, i talked to Ben Siew about it and he said “aiyo girl girl! your messages like that will make even the most cool-headed or oblivious man say things that ray did”
slammed; I know its me, but ray doesn’t want me to blame myself, so i blame Pauline because everytime someone talks positively about our...
LOUSY.
i feel lousy, i really do.
I can’t even pick myself up even when i’ve been beaten down. Instead i have to rely on someone else to help me cover up my blunders. That’s just lame…
“Dont be like that” you say, but i just can’t stop feeling negative because even the vibes tell me that i’m not doing things right.
Yes, for the past week i’ve been...
July 2010
5 posts
“say it ain’t so.”
– Weezer
CRUNCH.
My temple of thoughts is my toilet. I can sit on my toilet bowl and think the whole day. Good ideas would usually come, but beside that i can sit on my toilet bowl and cry over stuff too. like today, i cried because i just felt like doing so and it relieves me. Sometimes what i post on tumblr are my view on things. Please don’t flare up if you see things you cannot stand. Tell me that its...
MOVIE.
the last air-bender! OMG I WANNA WATCH!!! but people say not nice… i think just watch online can already hahaha =)
TIME.
Reblogged. Went to my usual salon to get my hair cut, everything was mundane and predictable. Moments later the boss of the salon came in, not the usual cheery self. Hung around the salon in silence for a while and started talking to his staffs. Silence as can be in the salon, i’d got absolutely no choice but to overhear the whole conversation between all 4 of them. Here was what they were talking...
BLAME.
No one likes being blamed – For things they’ve done, or for the things they didn’t do. For things they have done but thought was right, or for things they didn’t do because they thought it was wrong. For things they know was right but did wrongly, or for things they did even though they knew was wrong…
Problem is, the notion of blame is inevitable. It is only human to sometimes put the...
June 2010
20 posts
CRIME.
took a nap for an hour or so after i got home from kc~ and i had the most ridiculous dream! Now its all surreal~ but everything seemed somewhat familiar, scary! it started as me being the third person… he got mad and was yelling at her in some dark alley, about her gambling and how she wasted away their assets. Suddenly he flew into a rage - He pushed her onto a pile of garbage bags, shoved...
BREATHE.
I just did a quick research on hyperventilation; it has already happened to me quite a few times. on 2 of the occasions i was feeling despaired & was losing someone dear.
First time i recalled was when i lost my dearest grandmother. i couldn’t stop crying in the hospital as i felt her life slip right through my fingers when her heart slowed and came to a complete stop. The second just...
“I wish you happiness -
The kind that’s deep within your soul
and shines...”
– Denny Davis
AGAIN.
i really wish we could turn over a new page, start a new line, draw a new picture and make it all colorful together. i don’t want (us) to look back on all those bad times we had. i miss you, i miss us, i miss every single thing before our first argument.
i can’t control what people post on my wall but i’m sorry it happened~ i told him about it and he apologized to you and...
UNCONDITIONAL.
love records no faults. so what is unconditional love? I only see that kind of love between parents and their children which is built by the years of nurturing and caring, where mistakes are forgiven, no matter what the circumstance.
“He got me from hello.”
RESTLESS.
you’re not okay. time: 7AM
PRINCESSBOY.
the gf is in a troubling relationship. It doesn’t matter whose fault it was cos everytime they argue, she HAS to be in the wrong. The bf’s perception is; if you make me angry, you are the one who must apologize. - this is fuckery at it’s best.
When they quarrel on the phone he would slam it down and ignore all the attempts she makes. The only way to settle the issue is for her...
AVOIDANCE.
don’t keep disappearing off… =(
WONDERFUL.
i never imagined that such wonderful things could happen to me; you, me, baby domo, medium domo, chip & dale as one happy family. we’re like in the game of life except that it’s all real. i love our little family, this is lovely~ <3
FULFILL.
spent 3 days and 3 nights at my baby’s place. (since sat night) hee! so proud of him for accomplishing something he had set his mind to =) hopefully i helped out enough~ lol! So fulfilling =)
DESIRES.
I want to reconcile the violence in your heart I want to recognize your beauty’s not just a mask, I want to exorcise the demons from your past, I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart <3 MUSE~
ABHOR.
Who wouldn’t abhor like me if the following happened to you;
you quarrel with your father and he calls you a fucking bastard.
you get blamed for every single mistake be it big or small.
your family is biased towards your brother and he never gets any scolding or beatings even though he’s younger than you and yet, your parents lie through their teeth and tell you “we love u...
What makes him so right? Is it the sound of his laugh? That look in his eyes? When do you decide? He is the dream that you seek, That force in your life…
When you’d apologize, no matter who was wrong When you’d get on your knees if that would bring him home Tell me what makes a girl Wanna give you all her heart Smile when you’re around And cry when you’re apart...
BIMBO.
Diana just cannot stand bimbos. sadly Diana has got alot of friends and friends of friends who are bimbotic. In fact, the whole network is filled with bimbos. The worst Diana have seen is the kind who would worship themselves, create a fan page for themselves and track the amount of fans they have - for what? Diana thinks that they want to be like Ris Low. Example 1: Hi I’m Ris...
PHOBIAS.
List of my phobias;
Aglophobia
Batrachophobia
Dementophobia
Enetophobia
Entomophobia
Helminthophobia
Necrophobia
Trypanophobia
WISH.
i wish i could be perfect.
SOMEONE.
I want this to be the last time i fall in love. I found someone, who sacrificed so much for me, who changed his lifestyle because of a promise he made to himself that night. He is someone who is selfless and always puts me first before anything else. A gentlemen, i should say, who never fails to send me home when we head out, who walks on the outer sides of the pavements by the roads to keep me...
1000KM.
First and foremost, i would like to say, “CONGRATS TO THE TEAM WHO MADE 4TH PLACING POSSIBLE!!” we are one whole team right? Secondly i would like to say, “i can’t believe i walked out in public dressed in a skimpy mini skirt and a very striking orange spaghetti top, carrying a HUGE silver brolly… i must’ve looked pre-tty fugly.” (fats + more fats) =( ...
PACK.
Checklist for my 4 day 3 night stay in Malaysia <3 List excludes what i will be wearing on the way there. CLOTHES 2 tee shirts for bedtime 2 jalan jalan tops for day uses (1 top will be provided on S1k day) 1 or 2 FBTs for bedtime (depends on space) 1 white skirt 1 pair of jalan jalan shorts 3 sets of undergarments 1 Shawl or 1 Cardigan
TOILETRIES Shampoo Soap Toothpaste Toothbrush Facial Wash...
May 2010
38 posts
BED.
I HATE MAKING MY BED WITH A BURNING PASSION! ‘cause i have to tuck the bedsheets into the sides of the bed and it hurts like a bitch especially with this hole in my finger. FUCK. “but diana! WHY do you have to make your bed to tidily, it’s not like anyone’s gonna see it right?” I DON’T KNOW.
Here’s a picture of how it looks & just to lay the bedsheets...
NINJA.
Brother: when you realize that you’ve overslept, you jump off the bed like a ninja.
Me: WHAT?!
Brother: *laughs*
Me: what would you do if you overslept?
Brother: just go back to sleep.
あゆみ
鳥のようにはばたけるなら 君の元へ飛んでいくでしょう そして傷を負ったその背に 僕の羽根を差し出すでしょう 花のように儚いのなら 君の元で咲き誇るでしょう そして笑顔見届けたあと そっとひとり散って行くでしょう
BLUNDER.
i blundered & i should’ve seen it coming,
i get it now… tho feeling distraught.
i don’t feel like touching you anymore ‘cos i know that i’d be hurting myself if i do. this is equivalent to a slap in the face. sigh.
goodnight world, i hope i don’t wake up.
_ _ _T.
i am deprived of it, i really am. i have unfulfilled needs.
i i i i i i i i i i i. yes it’s about me.
MISS.
its that other side of you i’m missing.
WAIT.
i can’t say that i’ve given up on it because it doesn’t happen as often anymore. Even though i’ve tried “persuading” countless times, I’d end up being brushed away or excused and, sometimes, ignored.
the last time he said, “we still have next week.” but “next week” didn’t happen either. i feel… unattractive.
maybe...
SPLINTER.
i had the worst splinter ever! I’d dare say “THE WORST SPLINTER OF MY LIFE YET” thankfully the boyfriend knew how to deal with it.
& the process went using tools in the following order; >fingers >pliers >smaller pliers >needle
you can somehow imagine excruciating journey just to remove the big piece and YES there were smaller bits which were later removed at his...
SKIM.
since the boyfriend skims through messages, i will only type a few keywords in this post. DEAR MY FACEBOOK STATUS CRAVINGS *HUNGER* hahaha! that was simple!
FUCK THIS.
i cannot stand it!